The Waiting Room

Sunday night as we were going through our adoption manual for what seems like the millionth time, we came across a small line on the medical form that we had never noticed before.  How had we missed this?  We had looked at that form probably a dozen times!  Without delving into a controversial subject, we will just say that it was in regards to something that God had brought to our attention 9 years ago.  This is something He had spoken very clearly to us and we believe and trust that He impressed upon our hearts the right thing to do for our family, and we have continued to obey this conviction.  This one little line seems to counter that conviction.  We have consulted our social worker, and are waiting for some definitive answers.  She believes that there are ways we can handle this and be able to continue in the process of adoption.

Our hearts ache.  We spent some very sleepless hours last night in prayer.  At this point, we feel God telling us to wait.  That sounds so passive.  It conjures up visions of a hospital waiting room where everyone is sober and sedentary.  Praise the Lord, His waiting room is not like that.  Yes, there will be plenty of moments where we will need to just "be still before Him, and know that He is God", but being still and knowing are action verbs.  Actions that bring the peace of His presence into every situation.

So, what is the plan?  Well, at this point, we feel the Lord telling us to pray and prepare.  We will continue to prepare our home, our family, and our paper work, and we will wait on His voice to tell us to move forward.  We do not have His peace leading us to begin our home study today, so we will wait on Him.  We will be lead forward by His Peace.  We trust that our Father in Heaven has this worked our perfectly, and that His timing is perfect.  We do not wish to force His hand by running forward without His Peace.  Our Pastor said something on Sunday that is still resonating in our hearts. "God is more concerned and pleased with our submission and obedience in the process than He is about the outcome of the assignment He has us on."  Wow! This is what it is all about for us.  We will be submissive and obedient to God alone throughout this journey.  This journey is unique to our relationship with the Lord.  There is no way to compare it or try to formulate it to how someone else's journey took place.  Our one small little corner of His great picture will be unique as is everyones.  This is what makes His picture so perfect and beautiful.

Please be in prayer with us that God's perfect will and His perfect timing will come to pass.  Pray that we will undoubtedly hear His voice guide us and that His peace alone will lead us.  We so appreciate your prayers, encouragement, sensitivity, and understanding.  Just a little side thought that keeps running through my heart: "Maybe she's not ready for us to come get her yet." 
Trusting in His Grace, Peace, and Timing.
Frank and Tonya